, your question is:
Past
Present
Future
Past
Going solo, sneakiness, and dishonour. Shirking responsibility, and avoiding consequences for past actions.
Present
Patient waiting was necessary. Support by way of forgiveness, and loving guidance. Healing.
Future
Issues around children, childhood and childbearing. Also feelings, relationships and experiences we associate with childhood.
Be sure to examine your actions and motives and be sure that they are rooted in good will and noble intentions. Keep your situation as simple as possible and try to have fun, appreciating all the good things life offers.